I know, odd title for a journal yes? Hah. I'm just very sleep deprived and my eyes have been burning all day
Was thinking about what I said not long ago about how I felt it were to be better were I to stay away from too much socializing. And again revisiting the subject, I think that is the wrong thing to do. Yeah sure I've never been a social butterfly at all but,
I've always done that. Withdraw myself from others and well, it's contradictory to say I want to live that way yet tell myself I should connect with others. How would one achieve that anyways?
This site is a community. A place where artists of all stations and art appreciators alike all come together to value, to inspire, to motivate, and to learn from each other and anything and everything this site has to offer. This is a place to discover. A place to connect. A place that opens doorways. A place, to make friends and familiars. Most of the dearest friends I have I made through this site. And it was this site over the course of the past few years that has made me discover that art is all I want to do with my life. This place has impacted me in amazing ways and all ways that have helped me grow. It's helped me discover parts of myself I never even knew existed prior to coming here.
It's taught me harsh lessons but important messages that I needed to learn and I've come out for the better because of it. Or at least, I want to be.
So yeah yeah like many of you have said, I think I've isolated myself enough. I don't think hiding away will do any good for me or my art. I'll try to be better at acknowledging everything you all do for me. For everyone that has stayed around in my little corner and waited. For all of you that have sent me notes or messages over the years of support and encouragement through the rough patches. Thank you so much. I promise to work harder at treating you all with the respect you deserve and treating this place with greater care and attention.